I am the type of person who tries to never complain. I hate feeling "whiny" or like I'm ungrateful for my life...but today is just one of those days. I hope that just by typing all of my "problems" I'll feel better.
I dropped my freshly frosted cupcake on the floor. The carpet to be exact. So instead of eating my cupcake I spent 15 minutes getting chocolate icing out of the white carpet.
Emma Claire wanted to be comforted only by me this morning. Seeing as we have Daddy for only a few hours in the mornings to "help" I was quite frustrated that I got ZERO Mommy time today.
She also refused to nap until about 1 o'clock this afternoon.
Our Graco swing has BRAND NEW parts that we just got and it squeaks so badly I can't even turn it on. Did I mention she'll ONLY sleep in her swing.
I get upset and stressed out just thinking about sleep training. I could probably cry right now if I continued to think about it. So moving on...
It has become almost impossible to take EC anywhere because she screams and cries the whole. entire. time. Bringing up my next point...
My lack of adult interaction during the day drives me bonkers sometimes.
I cannot remember the last time I got to shower, do my makeup, fix my hair, and put real (not leggings and a shirt) clothes on...in that order.
Okay enough of whining...here's the flip side to my little Mommy rant...
I feel lucky to have food in my house that I can prepare to feed my family.
I know that Emma Claire won't want me to hold her and rock her forever. These days will be gone before I know it. And the Hubs works hard at his job to provide for us, and we are so blessed that he has this wonderful job.
Due to Emma Claire's lack of napping we got to cuddle and play together.....even if it was amidst several meltdowns due to lack of sleep.
We are lucky to be able to provide items for our baby. I'm glad she is comforted by her swing enough to sleep in it.
She has to sleep in her own bed at some point in her life, right? I should enjoy the fact that she wants to be near me while I can. She won't be this tiny forever...
Still trying to find a positive about not being able to take her anywhere without her having a meltdown....I know, she is so comfortable and feels so safe at home she doesn't ever want to leave. ha! :-)
I am so thankful for Skype, twitter, facebook and blogging throughout the day. It keeps me sane, and feeling like I'm not alone in this Mommy business.
Even if I spend my day in tights and an old fraternity shirt I still wake up each morning feeling so completely blessed that the Hubs works so hard for our little family so that I get to stay at home with this beautiful baby.
Her "morning hair" naturally sticks up like that. I kid you not. It makes my morning :-)
Okay, complaining over. I just needed to get that off my chest. And don't you love that my cupcake woes ranked #1 on that little list. ha. Sometimes it's just the small things that seem to create an emotional meltdown.
Please tell me I'm not alone in feeling this way??? I hate feeling "down" when I'm staying home and doing what I've WANTED to do my whole life.
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YOU ARE NOT ALONE....and are totally normal...and completely entitled. I STILL have these days! Life as a mommy. We don't come first...but we are loved. ;)
I won't even talk about my hair/makeup/wardrobe habits right now. Ha!
We are the same person, Mallorie! I'm just a few years ahead! ;)
I totally understand! I do work 2 days a week (which I like and don't like all at the same time). I crave adult time and get so bored at home. G didn't travel well at first either. We give her toys to play with and make sure she's full and won't need a nap soon. Other than that it just took her getting used to it. Sleep training is hard! Luckily for me, my husband did all of the middle of the night training. As soon as she started sleeping through the night I ended all night feedings and we just let her cry it out (I know everyone doesn't like that but it worked with her) If she wouldn't fall back asleep the hubs would rock her with a paci. I'm so sorry you feel down. Don't feel guilty though...you can't help the way you feel sometimes. I've had those days where it's like, "if one more thing happens I WILL go crazy!" Just know, "this too shall pass."
it is TOTALLY okay to go through this. We all have. And it's not complaining. It's LIFE.
I love how you turned around though and looked at the positive things... it's what keep us going :)
Awww!! I completely understand!! Things will get better! Good for you to look at the positives!! Not everyone can do that!
Lately Olivia ONLY wants me too so when I come home after work she is in my arms until bed time. I'm lucky if I can pee and take a sip of water! haha
I agree with you, I know they are only little for so long, and before we know it they won't want to be held/cuddled! (boo for that!)
You are a great mama! :)
It's definitely ok to complain and just get it all out there sometimes! Even better that you also looked at the positive in them.
Hope your day tomorrow is much better! I hear that some days are better than others.
You are not alone... Hang in there and know you are doing all you can.
Also, while I know she has meltdowns, try to go out anyway. It's totally stressful, but maybe do it with her when dad's home so you can both work to calm her. It will help her get used to it and work toward getting you out of the house. Also, is there a local mommy group you can join? THey won't care if she has a meltdown and you can still have adult interaction (and the best kind--the ones that understand!).
GIRL, I feel you! Somedays you just have those days, but I bet tomorrow will be ten times better because of it! I hope you already feel a little better just having gotten it off your chest, I know that always helps me. You are definitely NOT alone!! :)
um HIII my name is Allie... and I feel JUST LIKE you on 99.9% of these things (our swing doesn't squeak, it just rocks off the floor like its off balance ha!)... are you surprised that I can almost say I agree 100% ?? Seriously, I am very thankful to have you to talk to... when K got home last night and my phone kept going off, I explained that I had been talking to you all day and how much fun that was... being that I usually don't have ANY adult interaction until he is home. I. FEEL. YOUR. PAIN ANNNND BLESSINGS! I go through the exact same thought process a few days a month. I love your honest heart!! :)
Praying for us BOTH! ;)
Believe me your not alone...all of us mamas go through it or have been there. Your doing a great job.
I agree with Becky I like how you turned it around to make it positive!
The cupcake would have been #1 on my list too. Sometimes chocolate makes everything better.
It's good to vent sometimes. And of course you are not alone! The lack of sleep at the beginning made me crazy...the real kind. The Happiest Baby on The Block video was the most helpful for me, on how to calm a crying baby. And thoughts of sleep training stressed me out too, but somehow Katie sleeps through the night now. I don't think I ever really trained her?
This season will pass quickly!
Is there any way to WD40 the squeaky part of the swing? Don't be too hard on yourself, everyone has bad days.
Sending hugs your way. You are not alone. All us mommas have been there. ((hugs)) Love the new look of the blog!
Oh girl- we ALL have those days! Being a Mommy can be hard sometimes while also being the very best thing in the world- all at the same time! We are also going through a clingy stage right now and it's hard not to get any me time but you are right when you say that it will pass by so quickly. Hugs to you friend!
Don't feel guilty at all - these are totally NORMAL!
Preston would only sleep in his bouncer chair because of the movement and the vibration - but since he's been going to the sitter because I went back to work - we are teaming together and slowly working on getting him to sleep in the crib. He never used to take naps in it, but we are getting there. But girl, it's hard work - we give him his monster towel that he likes, we rock him to sleep, then put him in the crib - he'll cry for 5 to 10 minutes, then we rock him again, until he goes to sleep when we put him down. It's frustrating, it's hard - it's nuts. You can do it.
Also - maybe a part time gig would help - I SO craved time with adults when I was on my maternity leave...I would count down the clock kall day until my husband came home. No shower, no make-up, nothin'....maybe it would be good for you.
I also think 2-4 months is a very cranky stage - Preston would be cranky too whenever we went out.
You aren't alone and you are doing an AMAZING job!!! :)
PS - ROUTINE - remember that for sleep training, do the same thing every time! E-mail me if you have a question!
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